i guess if i’m speechless for the rest of my life….. that would be best. my life seems like it has been an overwhelming cycle of disappointments and mental anguish. i feel like one day everything is fine. the next i’m being treated slightly better than grade A dog shit. yoga helps but i’ve noticed that it hasn’t been helping anything permanently. it helps for an hour and maybe an hour after that…. maybe more than that sometimes depending on the day that it is. my mind is still constantly changing between being happy and optimistic to not wanting to be here and wanting to sleep all day. 

maybe i just have a serious problem, mentally. or maybe my life just needs to be changed completely. i can’t really decide. it’s probably both. or nothing at all.